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(no subject) [Apr. 4th, 2011|01:29 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

My girls are going to be four in nine days! Which is pretty unbelievable, frankly. Four.

They are able to tell me what they want for their birthday this year, which is kind of amazing. We're having a big party at Peter's, since there's no lawn here. They want a purple cake (ew) and while their requests for presents are harder to fill (Zoe Rei wants a Snuggalupagus and Bianca wants a hundred ponies) they can have a nice day with their little friends.

They have friends. My daughters have friends!
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(no subject) [Oct. 10th, 2010|02:10 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |amusedamused]

Children are hilarious! I found Zoe in my closet, trying on pretty much everything I own at once. Including my sexy purple burlesque bra, which was on her head.

Me: "Zoe! What are you doing?"
Zoe: "I want to be a fly, mum!"
Me: "What?"
Zoe: "Flies have wings!"
Me: "....what?"
Zoe: "Aunt Tal said your clothes make you fly!"

I might have died laughing. Tallulah said I looked fly and Zoe thought that meant if she dressed like me she would sprout wings. Brilliant. So I gave her my faerie wings and she flitted around the warehouse for hours while Bianca and I played basketball with their little hoop thing.

Day care is going well. Though if Zoe keeps swearing at the teachers we might have to find a new place... Oops. Apparently she 'don't want no feckin' orange juice!' My parenting skills lose SO many points...
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Very Friends Only [May. 30th, 2010|10:33 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |nauseatednauseated]

I just had a miscarriage and I didn't even know I was pregnant. I wasn't going to say anything, but I can't just...augh. I'm in RMMH just in case. I'm really upset. I don't want to do anything stupid. Here is safe. I'm safe from me. Just in case. Witness my fucking growth, bitches.

Thing is, I don't even know who's baby it was because...god, I've been with about four or five guys over the past few months and they said the baby was about two months along.

Two months and I had no idea. I had another person with me for two months and now they're just gone.


I can't keep doing this. Sleeping around to numb pain. I made a human. Another one. And then killed them. God, I am so fucking worthless.
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Friends Only [May. 23rd, 2010|07:34 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |moodymoody]

There was this weird guy today...I went into a bookstore to buy a naughty book for Pierre's birthday (I didn't just give away your present, P and you'll see why) and he was in there browsing and he came over to me and it was just...weird. He was all, "what are you looking for? I could help you choose" bleh bleh bleh bleh creepy voice bleh. He seemed perfectly normal, but it freaked me out. He was...weird. He just felt weird and I didn't like it and then he followed me around so I left without a present. Ew.

Feeling like shit. Mega loathsome shit.

Someone come cheer me up?
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Filtered to Jinx [May. 1st, 2010|05:50 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |predatorypredatory]

Hey, Jinx.

Want to go out for a movie, dinner, and then shag? Ethan's got the kids tonight and I need to get my head out of my ass for a while.
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(no subject) [Apr. 25th, 2010|01:58 am]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |listlesslistless]

It's my birthday (early hours) and I can't sleep because clowns will eat me.

My girls are three. They turned three on the 13th. Still processing.

Been thinking about switching courses, but I don't know. I've been doing physical therapy for a long time and I'm almost done, but now I feel so...otherwise motivated. Or not motivated.

My oldest children are three and already they have lost one parent. The others seem to know what they want to do. Why do I have to be the losery, lost, emo one?! I want to give my children a good life. I want to be someone they can look up to. But at the moment, all I do is get up on stage and shake my arse and fondle Chloe (which is awesome btw) and I have no idea if any of it matters at all.
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Friends Only [Feb. 9th, 2010|03:14 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |contentcontent]

There are four children in the house! It's awesome!

Stuff at Lugosi's is going well. School is going well. I'm not flipping out like I have been. I think...I really think things are going to be okay. I really miss my wife, but I'm going to be okay.

Also? The new band is amazing and I love it!
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Friends Only [Jan. 17th, 2010|05:35 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |thankfulthankful]

We'll be one more housemate down by next weekend. We're trying to decide now if the empty room becomes another nursery, or if we have someone else in. No one would fit in as well as our Izzy! They'd be coming in to a rather strange family of three parents and four children, two marrieds and one widow and who belongs to whom...I imagine it would be a bit like being told to dart down a dark alley with one's head cut off while having cabbage and lox thrown at you.

At least we're lovely lox...

Theo has gotten so big! I've been spending all my free time with him and my girls. Children really are amazing, aren't they? I started back at Lugosi's which is going well. Uni too.

Life is getting back on track. *deep breath* Let's keep it that way.

And yes, I'm stripping in the icon. Straight jacket Lugosi's fun!
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(no subject) [Dec. 24th, 2009|08:02 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |enthralledenthralled]

It's been a really long year...Collapse )

Here's to 2010. I'm ready to move on.

Today Ethan and Kali told me they are adopting my Theo. It's all been accepted and everything has worked out... This now means I will have to live with them my entire life, and all of our kids well apparently have three parents, but...who can complain, right? I saw my son again and held him in my arms. He's being adopted by two people who accept me as his mother as well... And two better parents would be hard to find.

I am so in love with everything right now...

Merry Christmas.
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Friends Only - Away from Serenity [Dec. 19th, 2009|03:18 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |shockedFlabbergasted]

Oh my GOD. I took Serenity to meet the parents because she's the only person who seems to be able to keep me calm and happy these days. It was just a casual thing and when Mum opened the door, nothing was strange. Until Father walked in and flipped out.

Apparently Serenity used to date him. My father. While he was married. Apparently she is the 'Serena' who broke my parents up.

What the FUCK do I do now?!
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Filtered to Abby, Lavinia, Spectre, Mary and Thomas [Oct. 17th, 2009|06:43 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |stressedstressed]

I'm so sorry.

I told Serenity. She says she's sorry too. So sorry. Shit.


I'm sorry.
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Filtered to Serenity [Oct. 11th, 2009|12:34 am]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |chipperchipper]


Meet me at the airport tomorrow?!
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Filtered to Chloe [Sep. 29th, 2009|09:25 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]

Chlo, will you come out with me?

Bi's here and I...yeah, I can't. Not right now.

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Friends Only [Sep. 25th, 2009|05:40 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |angryangry]

Today a social worker came, and she took Theo away. Apparently without Alessa, I offer an unstable home.

Yes, because losing my wife AND MY GODDAMN SON is so going to KEEP me from offing myself, you goddamn fucking whores. FUCK YOU I want him back :(

I want them both back.
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Filtered to David and Alessa [Sep. 13th, 2009|08:54 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |worriedworried]

David, I know things are !!! right now. But if you need time to unwind, you know you're always welcome here. For whatever 'unwind' might mean.
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Friends Only [Jul. 17th, 2009|06:23 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |dorkydorky]

Oh dear god, I have decided that Theo makes the best faces ever. Of course I say this and the next second Zoe comes in her wearing Kali's knickers on her head. And Bianca is pointing at her and laughing. Oh, I've raised them well!

I miss Tamm and Kay and I want them to come back and we can put the babies all together and watch them play! The girls are so cute with Theo. They're fascinated by him. Bianca asked me why he had small ears.

Having kids is just the most incredible thing.
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(no subject) [May. 11th, 2009|05:09 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |irateirate]

You absolute fucking monster.
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Friends Only [Apr. 25th, 2009|10:19 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |mellowmellow]

It's my birthday!! Come worship me and love up my children!!

Our son is amazing. He's so small and beautiful. I haven't slept in days and I don't care. I'm so happy. So very, very happy.

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Friends Only [Apr. 15th, 2009|11:07 am]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |touchedtouched]

Alessa and I are going to adopt a little boy!! He was born a few days ago and we plan on giving him so much love he won't know what to do with it. He gets to come home to us tomorrow, which gives us one day to buy a million things. But Peter the softy is going baby shopping with us this afternoon. We can use most of the stuff from the girls over again since we still have one of everything. I think Katie has the other one still? But we need newborn diapers and bottles and everything again. As well as boyclothes! I'm so excited! We're going to be his caretakers until the adoption is finalised so he gets to be with us for the whole process.

My girls just turned two and now there will be another tiny baby in the house! I'm so happy!

His name is Theodore :) And I'll show off pictures of his adorableness later!!
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To Those in the Know [Mar. 17th, 2009|06:43 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |peacefulpeaceful]

Today I was sulking because no one's found Thomas yet, so I went to visit Chloe. Because Chloe's still here and that's important. I chatted with Tallulah, who is a riot and a half, and then I came home and I was sulking more. And then my daughter Zoe came up to me and gave me a picture of a flower she'd found in a book. Which, destruction of property aside, was absolutely darling.

And then, not to be outdone, Bianca made up a song about Mummy and stars and fishes, which was adorable and now I want to put it to metal.

For I am hardcore.

I'm not okay about Thomas. I want him found. I love him. And I'm terrified about this disease because it keeps hurting the people I love. My best friend's daughter and my cousin Anna and dear Allanah. God forbid it get to anyone else. (You're being careful with yourself, Mara and James, right, Spectre? And D Ro, what about you?) But life here in my safe little haven? It's good.
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Filtered to Isabelle [Feb. 12th, 2009|06:33 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |okayokay]

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(no subject) [Nov. 29th, 2008|02:16 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |optimisticoptimistic]

I'm surrounded by children who are almost two and it's frightening.

We're going to visit cousin Peter today though, and there will be MORE children and *cackles*

Peter says he's been reading letters my Aunt Louise wrote her best friend. He's going to show them to me. I think it's cool that he can read about his mum's past. I bet my mum would never let me read HER letters.

But you know..she's still alive, and hence she would be mortified by my knowing the many dirty secrets I know she's hiding underneath those well kept clothes!

That sounded all kinds of wrong.

Anyway, my entire point is that I'm going to start writing stuff down. And maybe someday Bianca and Zoe can read it and be mortified/amazed/amused and know they have always been loved.

Keep it real, Muffins!
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Friends Only [Nov. 10th, 2008|11:35 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |grumpygrumpy]

Angry suit: When is this plane going to take off? I have a very important meeting to get to!
Flight attendant: The incoming plane is delayed, sir, there's nothing we can do at the moment.
Angry suit: Well, are you going to make arrangements for me to get on another flight? This is urgent! Do you know who I am?
Flight attendant (over loudspeaker): Excuse me, ladies and gentlemen, there is a gentleman at the desk who does not know who he is. If anyone has any information about his identity, please come forward.

Midway Airport
Chicago, Illinois

That flight attendant is my hero. After years and years of customer service, I wish I'd thought of that one!

Having two toddlers around is exhausting, especially when we're one parent down now. Damn Kali and her travelling.
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Friends Only [Oct. 16th, 2008|07:42 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |tiredtired]

So, I'm alive and everything. Which I can now consider to be of the good. I'm tired a lot. Having nightmares. It's still hard to do some things. But I'll be okay.

I'm really sorry I pretty much fucked up again. Seemed like a good idea at the time...

Anyway. Isa inspired meCollapse )
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Filtered to Peter [Oct. 14th, 2008|11:02 am]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |gratefulgrateful]


Thank you.
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(no subject) [Oct. 2nd, 2008|01:31 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |calmcalm]

I'm going to be fine. I'm talking to Abby and working things out.

I feel better than I have in a long, long time. All thanks to Isabelle's photograph. See, art can heal.
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Friends Only [Sep. 25th, 2008|11:25 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |boredbored]

I am bored.
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Filtered to Chloe [Sep. 19th, 2008|05:32 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |exhaustedShit]

Abby's letting me post because it's good for my like...mental state or whatevs.

What I did isn't your fault. I did it. Not you. I'm not dead lalala, apparently I'm not even when I want to be.

Also? I heard what happened with Yvonne's girlfriend. I've done shit like that before. And while I'm not exactly in an understanding 'lean on me for I shall carry you' place because I can't even carry myself, I just...guess I want you to know you're not alone.

So I said it.
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Filtered to Alessa and Pierre [Aug. 23rd, 2008|11:33 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |naughtynaughty]

Hey, so...

This is going to make me sound like a hobag. But whatever. Pierre, Alessa and I have this...agreement thing. Sort of...well it's...


Pierre, do you want to come sleep with my wife and I? Because I sort of want to be with a man and you're kind of the only one we trust not to just do it because "Waheyhey TWO GIRLS!"
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To those in the know, filtered away from Misha [Aug. 3rd, 2008|11:31 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |blahblah]

Apparently I live with a vampire now. If she thinks my kinds are tasty treats I'll shove a stake so far up her blood drinking arse, her mouth will look like a fucking fountain.

I know I shouldn't threaten, but it worries me...
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Private [Jul. 30th, 2008|08:06 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |blankblank]

Bianca's birthday was three days ago.

I didn't notice.

Friends Only [Jul. 30th, 2008|07:27 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |goodgood]

Liiifeeeeeee MEME.

I can no longer hide!Collapse )

That was fun! Now I'm off to play with my gorgeous daughters who will be waking up soon! My mother keeps referring to them as 'the twins'. GRARGH I hate that. As if the only thing that is important about them is that they're twins. It's like...if you're a twin you automatically don't exist without the other one. "When can we see the twins again? Will the twins be there?" YES ZOE AND BIANCA WILL BE THERE. I loathe it when people refer to any set of twins as 'the twins' instead of using their names. But she's my mother so I shudder and ignore it. Anyone else and I'd set them straight...

Maybe it's just a pet peeve...

Anyhoohoo I found a bunch of old pictures. So old my hair isn't even pink in a lot of them. Should I scan and post them?
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Filtered to Thomas and Spectre and Alessa this time [Jul. 13th, 2008|11:21 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |blahblah]

Thomas...are you avoiding me? I just...

I'm glad you're okay, alright. Really glad. If things between us aren't...then at least I know you're safe.
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Filtered to Thomas [Jul. 13th, 2008|01:28 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |restlessrestless]


I'm so glad you're okay...
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Filtered to Alessa! [Jul. 3rd, 2008|08:42 am]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |enthralledenthralled]

Alessa, Honey, I want Jorja...
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(no subject) [Jun. 29th, 2008|05:47 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |lovedloved]

Foxy ladies come in to Lugosi's, I have to say!

And now Kali's talking about having babies and Ethan's going into shock and so I have to show off my own! (And you know...Ethan's too...)

Bianca and ZoeCollapse )

I'm so glad things are okay again. Good again. It's such a relief to be able to breathe.
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Friends Only [Jun. 19th, 2008|09:17 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |jubilantjubilant]

Okay. I'm clearing things up here.

I did not cheat on my wife. I tried because I was drunk and depressed about one of my oldest friends dying and I didn't know what I was doing and that's still not an excuse. Luckily, Thomas is an upstanding man and he stopped me. So I didn't cheat on Alessa. And thank fucking fuck too. Because I love her and if I actually had cheated on her like that, I would never forgive myself.

We are going to be just fine. We've been honest and we've worked everything out. We're in love. Relationships are a process and you never get to stop growing and evolving. When something like this happens, it's a clear sign that something is wrong, and needs to be fixed. I was wrong. It's been fixed.

And now Kali is going to be okay and so is Thomas and I am just...so relieved.
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To Alessa [Jun. 16th, 2008|10:16 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |determineddetermined]

Alessa, we should talk. And work things out. Because I am not depriving our children of another mother because I am selfish and stupid and I'm afraid I can't fix me.

I love you. Our children love you. And I know you love me.

Everything else, we can work on.

I should probably also note that I am not taking no for an answer. Just FYI.
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Friends Only [Jun. 15th, 2008|11:19 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]

Why the hell am I so fucking fucked up?!
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Filtered to Spectre [Jun. 10th, 2008|09:54 pm]
Kat Whitney
[Current Mood |guiltyguilty]

I don't think I'll ever be able to apologise enough...
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